First Words

First Words .
First words are mellifluously confusing especially for a come back .
Its been a quite a time off .. and when i come to realize its been a soft surprise as its been almost one full year since my last blog entry .
Never the less, i needed that time off ..
As they say, "life is tough" and for me, that was what i went through and still getting through it .
A "rough" patch .
But as hard as it may be you just have to keep on BELIEVING ..and HOPING for the days ahead that will slowly shape your future .
God does not give challenges or problems that are bigger than our ability and strength .. and once we pass through it, we will only get stronger and wiser .
Being STRONG : its not much about physical strength but more of the power of your mind, mental control and slowly getting through it as a whole...and as a better person than the person that first entered the problem .
So ...apart from a special word from the lovely Audrey Hepburn .. i come back with 3 simple yet profound words : BELIEVE, HOPE and STRENGTH .

BREAK ..

U N D E R  C O N S T R U C T I O N 

and Life-Changing Things

Sorry for the inconveniences . 

Hope to be back soon =)

Slobby-ness ..

Yes ... i am back and yes, i have been rather slobby just blogging .. 

Was it the effect from Bonnie going up to Animal-Heaven? Because "Mystery Man" came? Or just plain busy???

The truth is ... i was slobbing because of myself .. 

Everything just got too overwhelming with work and this thing called life .. 

Things started to fall back out and others started to gather and fall back in .. 

I am just trying to finish all one week at a time .. a couple of problems within a week .. 

And OHHH!!!! How i ask for "motivation!!!" .. 

I AM BACK! 

............back with a scoop of motivation and a dash of ambition!

I am not leaving this blog behind no more unless its for a good reasonable reason!

Will surely post up all lovely things and project updates =) 

So keep checking ... will NOT disappoint you no more!!!

Alrightey then ... let's re-start shall we??? ;) 

***hugs blog*** i miss you .. 

A Sweet Email ..

A Sweet Email i received from my longggggggg time best friend .. an my on and off date-man .. 

It says:-

"Darling, my batt died… thank you for keeping me company during lunch it was indeed very pleasant =)

 

You have big dreams and I know that one day you’ll reach all of them.

I will support you in every way that I can, from a simple hug all the way to putting some money into your first shop =)

 

I believe that with starting with ______'s apartment, you’re able to learn and find more places where you can find great bargains and with great designs =)

Siapa tau* you ended up buying that Better homes and gardens show gitu hehehe

 

Traveling definitely sounds awesome =) even better if you’re able to live there for maybe 1 year to really know the culture and designs

And and…. Kalo boleh** I’d like to come too…. Or I’ll go first and set up the place to live etc for you to come =)

 

Can you just imagine the possibilities… the old/fun culture of Belgium, the quirkyness of german’s fashions… the dark side of sweden, the classic style/frilly things from paris

The silk from china you can use for interior… wah pokok ne banyak deh…*** =D "

It indeed does feel good to know someone out there supports you and will be there for you while I'm building my dreams .. 

Thank you my dear .. =) you surely made my day and added a dash of motivation!!

*Who knows ....

**If you'll allow me .... 

***There will be loads and loads ...

Wish List No# 28 : Cinderella's Missing Shoe ..

Do you have a shoe fetish? 

Ever thought about your "Perfect Shoes"?

Well i have ... and this is it!!! 

I've always wondered about the day Cinderella ran from the Ball at the strike of midnight and left her shoe ... you think she might have done it "accidentally"? ........so Prince Charming could find her? 

Haven't found my Prince Charming yet .. but when i do, i surely will wear this fine Satin Heel to our Wedding Ball ..

Just the very look of it screams out my feet! 

The Satin material with the diamontee and bow detailing is just absolutely Cinderella-ish Beauty!! 

This piece from Miu Miu been out for quite a while maybe 12-18 months .. i wonder if they still have some stock in Jakarta? ...after all, we do get our Fashion a little late then others! 

It's official .. this shall be my HAPPILY EVER AFTER pair of heels!

Weekend Getaway in Ayana Resort - Jimbaran Bali

The Bedroom .. 

Olive Green nuance makes it easy to relax .. 

The Toiletries 

Breakfast Area by the pond and garden

What you see is NOTHING to what you will experience if you stay here .. 

They have a awesome "Saltwater" Pool that's by the actual Rock Beach .. A Glass House Chapel .. Rock Bar which overseas 360 Degrees views of the beach and hangs off a rock cliff and serves the BEST martinis! .. 

Oh!!! and their spa's and massages are worldwide well-known and one of the best in Asia!

Did i tell you that they use "La-Mer" cream?

This resort is very much recommended!!

This is the normal pool ...

 and it already catches my breath enough to make me jump in at 7am in the morning!! 

Love it!!!

Unwritten

There's one song that motivates me back for the beginning of this year ...

 so thought I'd share with you =) its by Natasha Bedingfield .. 

I am unwritten, can't read my mind, I'm undefined

I'm just beginning, the pen's in my hand, ending unplanned

Staring at the blank page before you

Open up the dirty window

Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find

Reaching for something in the distance

So close you can almost taste it

Release your inhibitions

Feel the rain on your skin

No one else can feel it for you

Only you can let it in

No one else, no one else

Can speak the words on your lips

Drench yourself in words unspoken

Live your life with arms wide open

Today is where your book begins

The rest is still unwritten

I break tradition, sometimes my tries, are outside the lines

We've been conditioned to not make mistakes, but I can't live that way

Staring at the blank page before you

Open up the dirty window

Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find

Reaching for something in the distance

So close you can almost taste it

Release your inhibitions

Feel the rain on your skin

No one else can feel it for you

Only you can let it in

No one else, no one else

Can speak the words on your lips

Drench yourself in words unspoken

Live your life with arms wide open

Today is where your book begins

The rest is still unwritten

The rest is still unwritten

The rest is still unwritten

2010

Happy New Years Bloggers!!!

***Happy Twenty-Ten***

May this new year, new decade, new beginning ....

... bring us more joy, peace, success, prosper, health, happy life!

Let's welcome it with love love love .. 

All the best for all your goals and resolution this year!

Christmas Greetings

***MERRY CHRISTMAS***

May this year's Christmas bring an everlasting joy, peace and hope to you and your love ones .. May blessings overflow your life =) 

and let's all remember to celebrate the reason of the One who was born to die .. 

God bless you!

Loving Single-larity ..

Not worrying about my Single Life ... at the moment, I'm just enjoying it ... 

One revelation that pass by my mind ................

"About Men: The GOOD ones are always taken ... but ... the BEST ones are yet to come" 

All the single ladies say: "AMEN" .. 

Sanana - Maluku Utara

Squeezing in a little holiday time in the midst of another Project Survey ... 

This place has soooo much potential for resorts and tourism place =) 

All pebbles ... a Pebble-Full Beach .. 

Water so clear and blue upon the view of mountains and islands .. 

Didn't bring my bikini but didn't let this opportunity come to waste! .....so i jumped and swam with whatever i had on .. until it was dark about 7:30 pm .. 

And then i saw "GlowBugs" glimmering in the water!! Awesome!!

Loving Our New Living Surroundings

We recently moved further away from the City area of Jakarta .. 

We are now living in one of the Natural, Un-polluted area ... 

May not be a huge deal to those of you who resides in a Beautiful 4 Seasons Country, but for us in Indonesia, it's something different ... 

Its a lovely up-down hill boulevard filled with Green Trees ... a Lake with a Ship-Wrecked Playground ... a Jogging Track all along the River and of course the "awesome" Clubhouse!! 

Clubhouse has Spa & Sauna, humongous Lap Pool, Tennis/Basketball Court, Play Area and Gym!! 

(which i shall upload some pictures soon!)

Not to mention, the weather here gets quite cool at morning and night which is just lovely!! 

I'm definitely loving it!! 

I just need to find the time to decorate the house .. order some furnitures in .. furnish here and there ..

Just some steps away from living the almost-perfect life!!

Sway My Way ...

Don't stray . Don't ever go away . 

I should be much to smart for this . 

You know it gets the better of me . 

Sometimes when you and I collide ... 

I fall into an ocean of you . Pull me out in time .

Don't let me drown ... Let me down .

I say its all because of you . 

Here I go . Losing my control .

I'm practising your name ... so I can say it to your face .

It doesn't seem right ... to look you in the eye .

And let all the things you mean to me ...

Come tumbling out my mouth indeed its time,

Tell you why . I say its infinately true .

"Say you'll stay . Don't come and go . Like you do .

Sway my way .

Yeah I need to know . All about you"

And there's no cure . And no way to be sure 

Why everythings turned inside out . Instilling so much doubt .

It makes me so tired ... I feel so uninspired .

My head is battling with my heart . My logic has been torn apart .

Now it all turns sour .. come sweeten every afternoon .

"Say you'll stay . Don't come and go . Like you do .

Sway my way .

Yeah I need to know . All about you"

Its all because of you .

The Possibilities in the Perhaps

We are gifted with days after days each day ... tens becomes hundreds and hundreds becomes thousands of days ... and those daily thousands make up our lives as we proceed on living .

Usually we allow those days to pass without making the accurate decisions . 

There are two side in every story . 

Two thoughts in every state of condition . Positive and Negative . 

.......and from the small decisions that we make, we slowly design our lives......

"Perhaps, Perhaps, Perhaps" 

...........but let's see the Possibilities in the Perhaps and process the Possibilities to Willingness . 

Here are 14 of my Possibilities in the Perhaps .

1. Perhaps - sleeping in and allow the day gone without a worry?

2. Perhaps - puff a cigar? 

3. Perhaps - giving a noticeable frown?

4. Perhaps - picking up an unworthy magazine?

5. Perhaps - stop controlling my bad eating habits? 

6. Perhaps - complaining?

7. Perhaps - getting drunk?

8. Perhaps - finally stop caring? 

9. Perhaps - painting my walls and ceiling jet-black?

10. Perhaps - start judging? 

11. Perhaps - cage my feelings?

12. Perhaps - imprison myself?

13. Perhaps - finding a stranger i could love ..

14. Perhaps - giving up?

1. Possibly - waking up earlier and immerse the morning!

2. Possibly - a calligraphic verse tattoo on the back of my neck!

3. Possibly - smiling to the world with glow!

4. Possibly - picking up the Good Book!

5. Possibly - start exercising!

6. Possibly - appreciating the moment!

7. Possibly - dancing in the rain!

8. Possibly - caring without limits!

9. Possibly - start painting flowers!

10. Possibly - believing in others despite of circumstances!

11. Possibly - allowing positivity to sovereign in mind!

12. Possibly - living life in "freedom"!

13. Possibly - patiently wait 'til "he" comes around! (.....again?)

14. Possibly - persisting and succeeding! 

Let's not forget that though we don't create our lives, we are able to design it . and ... it's never too late . 

Start making your 14 Possibilities in the Perhaps!! 

Thank God its Friday!! =)

I am officially tired (physically) .. i've been busy with projects and other family activities all month .. 

and the past week was hectically busy .. 

Haven't been eating right and darn! - (its that time of the month where my emotions carries me away) 

but ... I've been stuffing myself with loads of Vit C and medicines and isotonic drinks .. 

This month will just get even more busier ... 

Can feel my body weakening and slowing down .

I refuse to get sick . 

... but i welcome the weekend with open arms ... 

LOVE the Weekends!!

"What is happening?"

Ever had a moment where you're puzzled by your own feelings? 

A lil' perplexed over your thoughts ... and you slowly allow them to control your moves . 

You want to scream yet you stay in silence .. 

You want to move freely yet you stand still .. 

You want to laugh out loud yet your internal being is crying? 

Here i am submerged in this feeling ... i want to express myself yet i write with complete blankness .. 

What is happening? 

Is this a temporary pitfall of life? or is it simply me : being numbed? 

Am i just tired over what's been happening?

Am i just exhausted over life's draining challenges?

All i want to do is to breathe ................ in and out .. inhale - exhale .. and just LIVE . 

I want to cease it all BUT i know i can't give up yet .. there's still decades ahead of me . 

I know i am not a quitter .. i am made to persevere, to be strong and spirited . 

I will not let this get to me ... 

Yes, i might fall for 2 seconds, i might struggle to get back up but eventually i will "rise" and take "hold" of what's been given .

I will look back and sweetly smile knowing i have again passed the test of life ... smirking and whispering to my point of reflection : "What doesn't kill me, will only make me stronger" . 

... and i will stand again (stronger this time), ready to take on life's next challenge with my defensive weapon :-

POSITIVE THOUGHTS of NEVER GIVING UP . 

It is those who proceed .. who carries persistence .. who commits themselves steadfastly who succeeds and triumph in life . 

............ and i aspire to be a winner ............