First Words

First Words .
First words are mellifluously confusing especially for a come back .
Its been a quite a time off .. and when i come to realize its been a soft surprise as its been almost one full year since my last blog entry .
Never the less, i needed that time off ..
As they say, "life is tough" and for me, that was what i went through and still getting through it .
A "rough" patch .
But as hard as it may be you just have to keep on BELIEVING ..and HOPING for the days ahead that will slowly shape your future .
God does not give challenges or problems that are bigger than our ability and strength .. and once we pass through it, we will only get stronger and wiser .
Being STRONG : its not much about physical strength but more of the power of your mind, mental control and slowly getting through it as a whole...and as a better person than the person that first entered the problem .
So ...apart from a special word from the lovely Audrey Hepburn .. i come back with 3 simple yet profound words : BELIEVE, HOPE and STRENGTH .

Making a Come-Back!

Dear Darlings,

Hello .. I'm back ~ finally back .. took a long break and slowly figured out what i wanted and needed in life .. wasn't easy and I'm still in the process of all that ..
I was browsing through so many whimsical blogs last night and i truly have missed blogging my interiors or even just my feelings .. i guess blogs are just the diary of today's generations .
I have so much to share within these months i've been away ... and yes! most of them are things so pretty =) and some even just encourage you to dress your room!
Though i am still in the process ... here are some hiccups i've managed to decipher :-

1. Life : day-to-day lately i just been feeling one of those days with too much worry and you wish you could sleep all day and at times never waking up at all - yes! it does sound depressing and not very "me" at all.. Thank GOD that i have come to realization and i do want to make a change! Change in the world that starts within myself .. So i have commit to make the most of my 24 hours with what will make me grow ..all things to do with health, my career, family and relationship (Mystery Man and friendship) ..

2. Career : for those of you who knows me well, you would know i am a tad .. a pinch .. a dash of a workaholic .. but lately it hasn't been so .. but from what i have breathe in and out are ideas that slowly crawl into the creativity production - and i love it! Then i think to myself......why o why should i stop doing whatever it is that i do?
With support and blessing from my family and friends, i have had the idea of opening up an Interior Agency within the streets of Jakarta ..just a small free lance start up and that i hope will be my baby that grows into a furnishing showroom =)
So i dared myself to talk to my Boss of Bellagio Furnishing and he wasn't happy about it at first as he thought it'll be something of a competition ...but as soon as i convinced him that it won't be and i'll still be part-timing in Bellagio Furnishing, he supported me by offering an affiliation with Bellagio Furnishing =D
.........and for now, yes i have started with an East Rembrant small house project..owned by a man with one great personality! - i feel so blessed ... and i am about 80% done with his house ... so keep coming back to see what i've done with the empty house!

3. Business : as a side job ... i dream of opening a business ...maybe something to do with fashion, which has always been a hidden passion of mine =) .....but all this later in the beginning of twenty-eleven! *excited*

Conclusion is sometimes we feel empty and sometimes we just start to feel tired don't feel guilty coz it's beautiful what a little-breather can do to you! To those who are feeling a lil lost, stay strong coz our Creator will never allow anything beyond our strength to happen ..

Much Love and stay posted!
♥ Renita

BREAK ..

U N D E R  C O N S T R U C T I O N 

and Life-Changing Things

Sorry for the inconveniences . 

Hope to be back soon =)

Slobby-ness ..

Yes ... i am back and yes, i have been rather slobby just blogging .. 

Was it the effect from Bonnie going up to Animal-Heaven? Because "Mystery Man" came? Or just plain busy???

The truth is ... i was slobbing because of myself .. 

Everything just got too overwhelming with work and this thing called life .. 

Things started to fall back out and others started to gather and fall back in .. 

I am just trying to finish all one week at a time .. a couple of problems within a week .. 

And OHHH!!!! How i ask for "motivation!!!" .. 

I AM BACK! 

............back with a scoop of motivation and a dash of ambition!

I am not leaving this blog behind no more unless its for a good reasonable reason!

Will surely post up all lovely things and project updates =) 

So keep checking ... will NOT disappoint you no more!!!

Alrightey then ... let's re-start shall we??? ;) 

***hugs blog*** i miss you .. 

R.I.P Bonnie Blue

Dear Bonnie, 

I hope you're in a better place now .. 

i couldn't stop crying over you ... 

... and i wish i could hold u and tickle ur belly one more time .. 

I wish i could hear your voice meowing again .. and look into your deep dark blue eyes .. 

I miss you Bonnie ..

You will forever be an irreplaceable kitten and always be cherished . 

Love always .. 

When will i see you again? When will we share precious moments? 

Will i have to wait forever? 

Will i have to suffer and cry the whole night through?

~ When will i see you again? - The 3 Degrees 

Apartment Dilemma ..

Okee .. so i been busting to pour out my creativity and build my portfolio at the same time .. 

So far, i've only been taking up projects that most of the big decisions comes from the client itself .. and it leaves me a little bored ... 

i want to take up small apartment projects .. working with a mere space but yet, contemporary, expressive and bold ... 

I want to be able to mix this and that colours ... and in the end it plays beautifully in a melody just like the picture above .. 

Not only will it benefit the resident, but myself too coz it will go great on my portfolio!! Right???

I been quite bless and know a few clients and networks who "needs" their condos and apartments to be decor .. but of course, within a certain budget .. so i have contacted them all and will have meetings upon meetings convincing them that i'll be able to a funky hip decoration yet within their budget .. 

Now this is where i need your support in prayer .. hoping that their budget is not too small to mix and match with ... and for them to trust me and my bowl of creativity completely!! 

Pray for me!! =D

A Sweet Email ..

A Sweet Email i received from my longggggggg time best friend .. an my on and off date-man .. 

It says:-

"Darling, my batt died… thank you for keeping me company during lunch it was indeed very pleasant =)

 

You have big dreams and I know that one day you’ll reach all of them.

I will support you in every way that I can, from a simple hug all the way to putting some money into your first shop =)

 

I believe that with starting with ______'s apartment, you’re able to learn and find more places where you can find great bargains and with great designs =)

Siapa tau* you ended up buying that Better homes and gardens show gitu hehehe

 

Traveling definitely sounds awesome =) even better if you’re able to live there for maybe 1 year to really know the culture and designs

And and…. Kalo boleh** I’d like to come too…. Or I’ll go first and set up the place to live etc for you to come =)

 

Can you just imagine the possibilities… the old/fun culture of Belgium, the quirkyness of german’s fashions… the dark side of sweden, the classic style/frilly things from paris

The silk from china you can use for interior… wah pokok ne banyak deh…*** =D "

It indeed does feel good to know someone out there supports you and will be there for you while I'm building my dreams .. 

Thank you my dear .. =) you surely made my day and added a dash of motivation!!

*Who knows ....

**If you'll allow me .... 

***There will be loads and loads ...

Unwritten

There's one song that motivates me back for the beginning of this year ...

 so thought I'd share with you =) its by Natasha Bedingfield .. 

I am unwritten, can't read my mind, I'm undefined

I'm just beginning, the pen's in my hand, ending unplanned

Staring at the blank page before you

Open up the dirty window

Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find

Reaching for something in the distance

So close you can almost taste it

Release your inhibitions

Feel the rain on your skin

No one else can feel it for you

Only you can let it in

No one else, no one else

Can speak the words on your lips

Drench yourself in words unspoken

Live your life with arms wide open

Today is where your book begins

The rest is still unwritten

I break tradition, sometimes my tries, are outside the lines

We've been conditioned to not make mistakes, but I can't live that way

Staring at the blank page before you

Open up the dirty window

Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find

Reaching for something in the distance

So close you can almost taste it

Release your inhibitions

Feel the rain on your skin

No one else can feel it for you

Only you can let it in

No one else, no one else

Can speak the words on your lips

Drench yourself in words unspoken

Live your life with arms wide open

Today is where your book begins

The rest is still unwritten

The rest is still unwritten

The rest is still unwritten

Loving Single-larity ..

Not worrying about my Single Life ... at the moment, I'm just enjoying it ... 

One revelation that pass by my mind ................

"About Men: The GOOD ones are always taken ... but ... the BEST ones are yet to come" 

All the single ladies say: "AMEN" .. 

Dear Mystery Man,

Dear My Mystery Man, 

We've been close for quite a while now .. been through harshest of the hardest times .. laughed like there's no tomorrow .. gained so much and lost so much .. hurt and in the process of healing .. shared times as if we knew each other from centuries before .

Known each other for almost every day for years now .. yet, there's still so much to learn about you .. 

So much to comprehend and absorb .. 

So much to understand and immerse .. 

You've always been a Mystery to me ... You're still Mysterious from the first time we met up to the last time we talked ... but you will be a Mystery i solve in the end of the day .. 

You are officially my Mystery Man ..

Sway My Way ...

Don't stray . Don't ever go away . 

I should be much to smart for this . 

You know it gets the better of me . 

Sometimes when you and I collide ... 

I fall into an ocean of you . Pull me out in time .

Don't let me drown ... Let me down .

I say its all because of you . 

Here I go . Losing my control .

I'm practising your name ... so I can say it to your face .

It doesn't seem right ... to look you in the eye .

And let all the things you mean to me ...

Come tumbling out my mouth indeed its time,

Tell you why . I say its infinately true .

"Say you'll stay . Don't come and go . Like you do .

Sway my way .

Yeah I need to know . All about you"

And there's no cure . And no way to be sure 

Why everythings turned inside out . Instilling so much doubt .

It makes me so tired ... I feel so uninspired .

My head is battling with my heart . My logic has been torn apart .

Now it all turns sour .. come sweeten every afternoon .

"Say you'll stay . Don't come and go . Like you do .

Sway my way .

Yeah I need to know . All about you"

Its all because of you .

The Possibilities in the Perhaps

We are gifted with days after days each day ... tens becomes hundreds and hundreds becomes thousands of days ... and those daily thousands make up our lives as we proceed on living .

Usually we allow those days to pass without making the accurate decisions . 

There are two side in every story . 

Two thoughts in every state of condition . Positive and Negative . 

.......and from the small decisions that we make, we slowly design our lives......

"Perhaps, Perhaps, Perhaps" 

...........but let's see the Possibilities in the Perhaps and process the Possibilities to Willingness . 

Here are 14 of my Possibilities in the Perhaps .

1. Perhaps - sleeping in and allow the day gone without a worry?

2. Perhaps - puff a cigar? 

3. Perhaps - giving a noticeable frown?

4. Perhaps - picking up an unworthy magazine?

5. Perhaps - stop controlling my bad eating habits? 

6. Perhaps - complaining?

7. Perhaps - getting drunk?

8. Perhaps - finally stop caring? 

9. Perhaps - painting my walls and ceiling jet-black?

10. Perhaps - start judging? 

11. Perhaps - cage my feelings?

12. Perhaps - imprison myself?

13. Perhaps - finding a stranger i could love ..

14. Perhaps - giving up?

1. Possibly - waking up earlier and immerse the morning!

2. Possibly - a calligraphic verse tattoo on the back of my neck!

3. Possibly - smiling to the world with glow!

4. Possibly - picking up the Good Book!

5. Possibly - start exercising!

6. Possibly - appreciating the moment!

7. Possibly - dancing in the rain!

8. Possibly - caring without limits!

9. Possibly - start painting flowers!

10. Possibly - believing in others despite of circumstances!

11. Possibly - allowing positivity to sovereign in mind!

12. Possibly - living life in "freedom"!

13. Possibly - patiently wait 'til "he" comes around! (.....again?)

14. Possibly - persisting and succeeding! 

Let's not forget that though we don't create our lives, we are able to design it . and ... it's never too late . 

Start making your 14 Possibilities in the Perhaps!! 

Thank God its Friday!! =)

I am officially tired (physically) .. i've been busy with projects and other family activities all month .. 

and the past week was hectically busy .. 

Haven't been eating right and darn! - (its that time of the month where my emotions carries me away) 

but ... I've been stuffing myself with loads of Vit C and medicines and isotonic drinks .. 

This month will just get even more busier ... 

Can feel my body weakening and slowing down .

I refuse to get sick . 

... but i welcome the weekend with open arms ... 

LOVE the Weekends!!

"What is happening?"

Ever had a moment where you're puzzled by your own feelings? 

A lil' perplexed over your thoughts ... and you slowly allow them to control your moves . 

You want to scream yet you stay in silence .. 

You want to move freely yet you stand still .. 

You want to laugh out loud yet your internal being is crying? 

Here i am submerged in this feeling ... i want to express myself yet i write with complete blankness .. 

What is happening? 

Is this a temporary pitfall of life? or is it simply me : being numbed? 

Am i just tired over what's been happening?

Am i just exhausted over life's draining challenges?

All i want to do is to breathe ................ in and out .. inhale - exhale .. and just LIVE . 

I want to cease it all BUT i know i can't give up yet .. there's still decades ahead of me . 

I know i am not a quitter .. i am made to persevere, to be strong and spirited . 

I will not let this get to me ... 

Yes, i might fall for 2 seconds, i might struggle to get back up but eventually i will "rise" and take "hold" of what's been given .

I will look back and sweetly smile knowing i have again passed the test of life ... smirking and whispering to my point of reflection : "What doesn't kill me, will only make me stronger" . 

... and i will stand again (stronger this time), ready to take on life's next challenge with my defensive weapon :-

POSITIVE THOUGHTS of NEVER GIVING UP . 

It is those who proceed .. who carries persistence .. who commits themselves steadfastly who succeeds and triumph in life . 

............ and i aspire to be a winner ............

My First Blog Post

Welcome to my blog!! Yes ... this is my First Post!! 

Not sure how to start my first .. so i'll just leave you with a quote: 

"You don't have to be great to start ... but you have to start to be great" - Zig Ziglar